Remember a couple weeks ago, I talked about ruining paintings..saying it’s inevitable. It’s going to happen if you’re an artist? Yeah, well, this is one of those paintings I completely and utterly ruined. This was a few years back, maybe 4 years ago, and I’m still mad at myself for doing it. Every time I see this photo of it, I want to cry because I loved this painting just the way it was at this stage. I should have called it finished, but I kept working it, and working it, and ended up overworking it. I ended up completely painting over it with gesso because I didn’t like the direction I took it in, and I couldn’t get it back to this stage. After a few days, I gave up trying. :/ Which is why I say I do believe you can overwork paintings, especially abstracts, even though not everyone agrees with me.
Starving Artist Tag – part 1
Today I’m doing the starving artist tag that I’ve seen going around the net. Feel free to answer these questions on your blog, too. I must say, this was fun. 🙂 I’m breaking this up into two posts because it got kinda long with 20 questions to answer, even though I tried to keep some of them short.
1. What’s your favorite experience as an artist?
When buyers write to me after they’ve received their art, and tell me inspiring stories about why they bought my artwork. Mostly this happens with my portraits because when you paint emotion, you often times get emotional responses in return. A few times a year, I receive these raw, intimate, in the moment type emails that I simply cherish. Some of their stories really touch me. It’s nice to have a special bond with people who are housing my heart and soul in their homes. It sets my mind at ease knowing I’ve shipped my artwork to a nice home, and it will be loved and cared for.
2. What’s your least favorite experience as an artist?
I’ve had a few bad experiences with commissioned work, and whole sale orders. I’ve been burned several times, once by a “good” friend. Each time it happened, it left me bitter and angry. I stopped taking commission for a couple years. Now that time has passed, I know I learned a lot from each incident. It certainly gave me a wake up call. It was time to start acting more professional. I knew I had to protect myself, and my business. Now I’m careful and extremely selective about the custom orders I accept. A deposit must be made before I’ll even consider picking up a brush or knife. If the deposit can’t be made, neither can the painting.
My girls always keep me in line.
“C’mon, Mom! Time for werk.”
3. What are your dreams/goals for your art?
I know most people dream of the day they can retire from their job, but my dream is to never retire from mine. Even if for some weird, unknown reason I stop selling my work somewhere down the road, I still want to make art for myself.
My most recent goal, which has nothing to do with my dream, is to use up all my 6×6 panels in the next year or two. Right now I envision each one as an oil portrait, but that might change later on down the road. Either way, it will be challenging because I have a little more than 300 panels sitting on my shelf. I don’t believe in setting goals unless they’re lofty. 😉
4. Whats your favorite medium and why?
Currently, I’m obsessed with oil paints. It’s a fairly new love of mine. I’ve only been painting in oils for 3 or 4 years, and I haven’t taken it very seriously up to this point. Lately, tho, I feel a rush of excitement when I walk into my studio knowing I’m going to paint with oil. I’m in what I call the experimenting or “scientist stage”, which is always fun. I think I can easily stay at this stage for many years to come. Is it possible to know everything there is to know about oil paint? I don’t think so.
I definitely find it more challenging to paint with oils because of the fat over lean rule, and all the different mediums you can buy to work with the oils. I’ve been studying, and reading a lot of product reviews, and getting advice from other oil painters. I’m a bit overwhelmed. Every medium works differently in the oils, like Galkyd, which I’ll be trying for the first time this week. I’ve been using a similar fast drying medium, but wanted to give Galkyd a try because I’ve read many good things about it.
I’m also trying out a varnish, which you can use when your oil painting is touch dry. You don’t have to wait months to seal your painting or ship it off unsealed, which is what I’ve been doing. It’s called Gamvar. I’m so excited to try these, and will write a post about it soon.
5. What inspired u to do art/why do u love it?
It began early for me. I remember back when I was 6 years old, I received a handmade bracelet, and necklace from some older twin girls on my school bus. I was so in awe of their talent, my love for handmade only grew from there.
Then a few years later, again on the bus, a girl named Patty asked if she could draw me. She was such a great little artist, so realistic! I still have the drawing on folded up notebook paper. It’s something I’ve treasured since I was probably 9 or 10 years old.
6. What’s the favorite piece you ever made and why its special?
I actually have two favorites, and I can’t choose which one I love more, so I’m posting both. The first one is Be Still, Child. It came from a vivid memory I started having of my Mom after she passed away. It’s a personal piece, which I kept for myself. It’s hanging right here above my desk. The girl in this painting looks like me when I was about 13, I think.
And, Oh Sweet Sunday – Annie and Her Horse. I just love the relation between these two. It’s similar to the love I feel for all my pets, so I really get these two. Annie lives in Germany now, and every time I see a photo of this painting, I miss it.
7. Who/what are your biggest art influences?
I have a few favorite artists..Duane Keiser who works in oils, and started the daily painting movement way back in the day, Karen Margulis who works in pastels, Carol Marine who paints still life and landscapes in oil, Shelby McQuilkin who paints abstract figures, Lisa Daria, who paints daily abstract florals in acrylic, Sarah Sedgwick, who paints still life and portraits in oil, Terry Miura – omgosh..I literally drool over his work. LOVE it! Then there’s Tom Birkner, Alex Kanevsky, France Jodoin, Kathy Jones, Robert Joyner. This list goes on and on..
8. What did you learn from being a full time artist?
I had no idea how much work it is to be an artist or how much time I’d have to spend in the studio and on the computer each week. I actually thought artists lead a pretty chill, lazy life. How hard could it be? You paint and then you sell it. haaaa!! I was a complete and utter fool. Reality is sooo different. My life is literally consumed with my business, and I have little time for anything else. My advice for anyone wanting to be an artist..get ready for some extremely long days of hard work.
a quick oil portrait in my art journal
9. What do your family&friends think about you being an artist?
I hid being an artist for many years from my family and friends. Art was something I held very close to me, and I didn’t want people interfering with my dream. My skin was extremely thin back then, and painting felt so vulnerable. If anyone close to me had criticized my work, I probably would have quit painting. So, outside of my household, my mom was the only person who knew I painted, and she wasn’t all that impressed with my work. haha!
Now, just about everyone knows what I do, I think. I’ve never asked them what they think because I’m at a stage in my career and life where I don’t care what anyone thinks. I gotta do me.
My husband tells me all the time that he doesn’t like this or that about a painting, and I’m completely fine with it. Chances are, I don’t like those things either, and I’ll agree with him. Sometimes, he tells me he flat out he doesn’t like this or that painting. Whatever, dude. I don’t take it personally. I welcome his advice because sometimes my paintings suck, and I’m okay being told that because clearly he’s only stating the obvious. haha!! Besides, if he said he loved every painting, how could I improve? It doesn’t hurt my feelings in the least. I’ve come a long way, baby, and I’m certainly not going to stop painting if someone doesn’t like my work. I detached my self from my work long ago.
pink and blue floral on the easel
10. Was becoming an artist your childhood dream? If not what is?
YES! When I was a small child, I had an epiphany, and actually envisioned myself painting when I was older. I was wearing a white flowing dress, and I was outside painting at an easel. The breeze was blowing my gown, and long hair around. ha! Cheesy, I know!! The weird part is I never pursued art until I was in my thirties, and it was then that I remembered my epiphany.
Okay, I’m stopping here. I’ll have the rest of the questions up later this week. Hope you enjoyed reading my answers so far. 🙂
Filming painting videos
Revised!
Quest for Perfection
Now that I’m getting back into painting portraits again (or at least revising the old ones), I’ve been thinking about filming painting videos again. I don’t know why painting portraits triggers me to want to make videos, but it does. The two are inseparable to me, I guess.
New! intro for my Etsy shop
I ordered a mini tripod for my phone, which should be arriving soon. I’m excited to start using my YT account again. It’s been a while. I gave it a test drive today by making a new intro video for my Etsy shop. Since I’ve been updating my paintings, the video needed updating also. Hope you like it.
Have you notice that I made a lot of my old videos public once again? Some of them haven’t seen the light of day for many years, so you might want to check it out. While you’re there, be sure to subscribe. I don’t always post my videos here on my blog.
Pink and blue revised floral painting
Revised!
Acrylic pink, blue, white impasto floral painting
14×18 inch canvas
Floral Painting No 124
Another revised painting is now complete. This is one of my earlier paintings, and it’s bothered me for a while now. The flowers were too close to the edge of the canvas, and it didn’t have enough definition. It just looked like a blob of flowers, and I wasn’t crazy about the colors. The background wasn’t doing much for me, so it had to go. The vase was too small. The blue was too dark. The pink was too red. The fallen flower looked lopsided. I could go on and on..so, yeah, I pretty much didn’t like anything about this painting, and picked it apart every time I saw it. I was eager to fix it, and had a vision in mind. It took only a couple hours to go from that to this..
This went from something I wouldn’t hang on my wall to one of my favorite paintings. I absolutely love this painting now.
Floral No 124
Available for purchase here
Small to large prints available here
If you’ve got paintings hanging around that you don’t love, there is an easy solution..do something about it. Life is too short to beat yourself up every time you see one of your unlikeable paintings. The time is NOW. Instead of cringing, make something you’re proud to hang on your wall. Simple as that.
Gone forever
I’ve had a lot of people write to me about buying this painting. I’ve been meaning to tell you that it sold a couple weeks ago over on Amazon. I don’t take the time to write about every sold painting, but I know several people have been saving up to buy this one. It’s also one of my favorites, so I don’t mind showing it off here on my blog one last time.
That’s the unfortunate thing with original paintings. Once one sells, it’s gone forever. Not only will I never see it again, which makes me sad sometimes, but I also feel bad for the people who miss out on buying it. There won’t ever be another exactly like it. It’s simply not possible, and if you wait too long, you miss out. All original paintings are time sensitive. If it helps any, there are small to large prints available here.
Summer Rest
This lovely pink abstract puddle begged me to take its picture. How could I refuse?
I’ve been listening to Just between you and me podcast. I like how Jen talks about having rest time, and how summer is that time for her. My normal rest or downtime is in the fall. I love having time off once the heat and humidity break. I usually spend summers in my air conditioned studio because it’s too hot here to do anything else. I pretty much work around the clock.
Ellie Mae
Revised and available here
I’m doing things a little differently this year. I’m still working on revising paintings, but I decided back in May that I wanted to actually enjoy this summer, instead of working through it like a mad woman. To slow things down a bit, work had to take a backseat to LIFE. I can’t tell you exactly how lovely this summer has been, but I can try..
I’ve been lounging around, taking daily naps, staying up until 5am reading books, listening to music, playing games on my phone (I’m addicted to this one, and no, it’s not Pokemon). I’ve also been watching Downton Abbey, going for afternoon drives, taking long baths to try to stay cool, painting my nails (something I haven’t done in MONTHS). I also started watching a new series – Mr Robot with my husband. Pretty exciting fictitious (or is it?) show about cyber crime. I’ve also had time to spend in the kitchen making coconut milk kefir, gf sourdough bread starter, and gf sourdough bread. I never knew you could make bread starter from only rice flour and water.
To slow things down in the studio, I stopped churning out painting after painting like a machine. Instead, I started making art just for me again. I won’t be posting any of it on my blog, social media or any selling site. Not because it’s bad art, but because I want to honor it, and myself. It’s special to me. It’s my “keep a piece of yourself for yourself” project.
Remember the days before social media..way back before we were made to believe we have to share every moment of our lives (along with photos as proof or it didn’t happen), and bare our souls in public for everyone, including strangers to read? That’s the old, nostalgic feeling I’m going for with this project. I want to be free to paint without outside judgement or reaction of any kind, good or bad. No thumbs up. No happy or sad face. No hearts. No stars. No comments, no input, no opinions. No “this one liked it, but that one didn’t” record for me to keep in my head until the day I die because that’s what artists do. No obsessing over when or if it will sell. For this project, I’m going back to the basics. It’s just me, and my art. What else do I really need?
Besides Jen’s podcast, I’ve also been listening to Snow and Coffee. As much as I love winter, I’m not quite ready to let go of summer yet because watermelon, fried green tomatoes from the garden, and fields of bright yellow sunflowers popping up all over the sunflower state, but I am starting to look forward to Fall a teensy bit.
the charm of being tall
sunflower photos were shot by my husband, Greg
Here’s to having some rest time while we wait for cooler weather, eh? I’m going to be doing more of the same as above. I’m addicted to slowing down, and having a summer break. I shouldn’t be away from the blog for long spells, tho. I have some posts lined up, so it won’t be as quiet around here.
PS: Are you watching anything good on Netflix, Hulu, Amazon or Youtube this summer? Let me know in the comments below. I’m always looking for something new to watch, and since this hot weather is going to continue for a couple months, I’ll probably be spending a lot of time indoors.
Interesting websites
Sold!
Another one like it is available here
Every week I share my favorite finds with you, so here’s some interesting websites I’ve been perusing lately..
12 ways to make an art studio at home even if you don’t have room.
Did you know that Etsy toys with its site at least 50 times a day?
How Finding the Right Community Can Help Your Creativity
Bang & Lessin from simpleandfunctional on Vimeo
This couple makes abstract paintings together, and it’s fascinating to see how they work. As I watched, I kept wondering if I could work with my husband like this. By the time the video was over, I was sure the answer is no. haha
I had no idea so many people with chronic back pain, like me, prefer to sleep on the floor. There are benefits to this lifestyle. I tried it for a couple nights, and it was a weird experience. I didn’t sleep long, maybe 2 or 3 hours, but I did feel well rested on that little sleep. It was quite painfully uncomfortable, which is why I couldn’t stay there long. I’m not sure it’s for me, but I might take some naps on the floor now and then. I think it helped align my back and spine because I was walking much straighter the next day.
I’ve been reading a lot about kefir and kombucha, and the benefits of a cultured diet for curing food allergies and autoimmune diseases. I’m giving it a try.
Sometimes life gets in the way of art
Floral No 250
Acrylic on canvas
Available for purchase here
If you’ve wondered why I’ve been so quiet, it’s because I was called away to jury duty. I’ve had it hanging over my head for 8 months now, like a black cloud, so it was a relief to finally get it over with serve. I got tired of stressing out about it. What a long drawn out process this turned into. I was first notified back in October of last year, and I sent in my paperwork. I received paperwork back saying I was to serve between the beginning of January to the middle-ish of June. At that time, I thought the case must be HUGE, and was going to take months. I waited, but heard nothing back from the court.
When June rolled around, I was beginning to think they forgot about me, misplaced my paperwork or something? I thought I was home free. Four days away from being dismissed, I received more paperwork in the mail. I was to report for duty in 2 business days at 8:45 am. I think they mailed everyone in town that day because 150 people showed up. Don’t ask me how I got chosen out of that many people when I’m such a wallflower, but I did, twice.
The first time they called my name, I was put in a smaller pool of 39 people in the center of the courtroom. We were in the running. I was in the first row, sitting in front of the judge with the defendant sitting a couple feet in front of me. We had to sit there directly facing each other for about an hour, maybe two? To say it was uncomfortable would be an understatement, especially after I heard the charges. It was a serious criminal case.
Both lawyers gave a speech to break the ice. They spoke to some of us individually, and asked a few personal questions relative to the case. Some people asked to be taken into the judge’s chambers to answer privately. If someone from the 39 was dismissed, they called another name from the audience. The lawyers continued asking questions, and weeding through our answers until they were satisfied. We were told to remain seated while they went back into chambers with the judge and defendant, and chose 13 of us out of the 39.
Skipping ahead with a funny story..days later, after the verdict had been read, we were told by the prosecution that we hadn’t really been “chosen”. The lawyers each got to strike out 13 people they didn’t want, and we were actually the “leftovers”. haha! Gee, thanks! 😉
I was the last name called into the pool of 39, and the last one called out of 13 (I didn’t end up being juror No 13, tho). I was counting on my fingers as the names were read off. I was just about to breathe a huge sigh of relief when they said my name. I stood up, instead of sighing.
Everyone else was told to leave, and the place quickly emptied out. We were swiftly whisked away, exiting through the back door. From there on out we became the property of the court, pretty much. If there was a court recess, we were taken into the back, and locked in the tiny jury room. We did get to leave for lunch, and we got to go home at night, so I have no complaints. Also, we were waited on hand and foot by the clerk. She brought us water, fruit, soda, snacks, and even made us coffee. It was hot in that little jury room, little or no a/c, and the temperature outside was raging well over 100F. We ran her ragged with requests for water. More water!! She was a real sweetheart. If we needed anything, all we had to do is buzz.
That’s pretty much where the story ends, at least here on my blog. I’ve decided that because of the sensitive subject matter, and out of respect for the family and the minor child involved, I’m not going to disclose any detailed information about the case. I’ll only say that I’m confident that I made the right decision for the verdict – not guilty on all 5 counts. I have no regrets.
Now it’s back to the studio for me. I re-opened my Etsy shops, and started painting again yesterday. On the outside, it appears like it’s business as usual, but I’m not going to lie. It’s hard to carry on as if I haven’t been changed by this experience.
My wish going forward is this.. I hope everyone involved can heal. I hope they somehow can find peace, love, forgiveness in their hearts, and that the verdict brings closure. My thoughts are with you all. If any of my fellow jurors want to keep in touch, please email me. xo
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