new start
This is where I left off on the large painting that hangs over my living room couch. I was too frustrated to even take a photo of it when I hung it back on the wall a few weeks ago. I had put in a lot of time and effort, but I didn’t like anything about the painting. I had to give up on it for a while, and walk away from it.
After days of staring at it, obsessively over-thinking, and trying to figure out where I went wrong, I came to several conclusions:
1. I didn’t like the colors
2. It reminded me too much of my earlier work, which makes me laugh because if you remember, I was using a reference photo of a painting I created back in 2011 or so. So, like duh, why shouldn’t this painting remind me of old work? lol I have painted many large landscape paintings in the past that look just like the one above, which makes no sense to me now in hindsight. I painted over all those paintings because I didn’t like them. Heck, I even painted over the one in the reference photo I was using, so why was I trying to re-create it yet again??? My brain was clinging to my past work for some reason.
3. And..the biggest reason I didn’t like the painting? I find absolutely NO joy in re-painting or trying to copy my old work. Copying takes all the fun out of painting for me. I know that the happiness I feel when I’m painting comes from being alive in the moment, exploring, learning and discovering new things while painting. What happens if I do this? What happens if I try that? How about some pink here? No? Okay, maybe blue?
If I’m just trying to copy myself, there’s no experimenting or excitement because I’m not making new discoveries. I was staring hard at a photograph, trying to make a clone of an old painting, and that just isn’t how I want to work.
Be here now.
Ram Dass
I’m not sure where this painting is going, and that’s okay. Here’s to new discoveries, exploring new options, and having FUN while painting.
Edited: I wrote this post last month, but never got around to posting it. I’m knee deep in work right now, so blog posts will be sparse for the next several weeks, and most likely, throughout the upcoming holiday season. Thanks for understanding, and sticking with me. I appreciate you so much.
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It’s the perfect time to freshen up your walls for the new fall season, so be sure to check out my eBay store. I’m listing original paintings at low starting bids. Remember to click the ❤️ to save me as a favorite seller, so you don’t miss out. I’m also having a 10% off already marked down paintings in my Etsy shop. Hurry! Sale ends soon.
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